Insomnia

How better to define summer than those endless nights where everything just seems to align in your mind. You lay in your bed, perhaps your computer chair. The light is off; only the flicker of the computer provides illumination. And there in your room, you're truly alone with yourself. You face the demons of your past and the bright lights of your future. Days gone by pass slowly like that lonely car outside your window.

And as you think, you start to realize that everything is connected; action reaction, cause and effect. Past regrets flood your mind and in the darkness all is lost! You can wrap yourself in a blanket but no comforter can protect you from yourself, not early in the morning as the light wanes and your mind drifts.

But there is peace. There is a point, hard to name but tangible nevertheless, where everything is alright. It's as if the clock strikes 3 and your mind releases you; those bad memories fade with the moonlight. And as your thoughts dull, you have the sharp realization that you truly can find happiness. You claw and grasp and struggle to wrap your hands around that fleeting feeling that everything will be alright, that your future is bright, and that you will awake with a fresh perspective and a jumpstart on your life.

The clock strikes four, and I look at myself in the mirror. Tussled hair, bloodshot eyes, but within myself I can see peace. I can see that deep down I know that everything will be alright, and in 5 10 50 years my juvenile thoughts and cares will be washed away like footprints on the beach.

This comforts me as I drift to sleep.

Everything will be alright

Everything will be.....